thank you 2011

January 11, 2012

…no late post for big JC :)

Dear God,

As I close the door on the old year, allow me to say thank you for all the blessings that you have showered upon me. The year is most memorable to me and I will be forever thankful to you. I got married to the man whom I know you saved for me, our wedding may not be fabulous but it is blessed.  

Thank you for all the tough times which made me stronger in faith, hope and love. You made me believe more that you are true to your words. That you are all knowing, forgiving, loving and merciful God.  That all I need is to call upon you and huurraaaahhhh you will save the day for me.  :)

For the new friends that I made and for those friends whom I offended, I say thank you for giving me the opportunity to ask for forgiveness and to let go of the hurt and pain.

To my family who proves to love me all the way despite leaving home, to allow me to grow and have my own family with Al. To the Rico’s who accepted me as their own and loving me unselfishly.

For my work, though there is still no glimpse of increase, I am thankful. If not because of this job, I will not be introduced as  our pretty, beautiful, smiling HR Supervisor during school programs….heheheh…no money to buy my needs…(setting aside now my desires..am being practical …but hair rebond?….hmmmm yeah

Thank you for giving Al to me….to cherish and to grow old with.

and most of all, God thank you for the gift of Life..for another year to celebrate..my life has been easy because you have walked with me. Many times when my burdens were so heavy to bear and how my faith slipped away from me, You were always there to support and standby me.

Now, as I open the door to this New Year, with no idea what holds for me and whatever it brings to me. I will meet it doors wide open and with a heart so true. I know God that whatever it may be you will always be there to carry me through.

Cheers to 2012!

love always,

Missy

 

Dear Santa

December 7, 2011

 Dear Santa,

17 days to go and it’s christmas day. I pray that you will grant my wish to have a baby and for those women who are also praying and hoping to conceive.

love always,

Missy

 

Learning Xperience

August 1, 2011

 

Life has taught me lesson in the hardest way. Early in my marriage life, I am living in a dream, full of hope and in high spirit to see what lies ahead. Unfortunate event happend, sadly though I discovered early that marriage is no fairytale in a storybook, not even like our wedding storybook type invitation which i made myself. I am thankful because it helped me realize more of myself, that my faith to my God even during the toughest time did not withered. That I am stronger than I think I can be, that I will be forever protective and will do anything to save my love one. I am more mature now in terms of viewing life in the other side of the coin. If I am to reset my life I would still choose to marry my husband but this time I have to open my big eyes to reality. That life is not always how we want it to be. That life doesn’t present itself in a silver platter. That we need to stand to make things right. That we need to be strong to let go even it will cause much pain in your heart. I have also learned that in praying especially during the most trouble time, pray for yourself to be strong to face the trials rather than to pray for that somebody. I say this because if you are stronger you can easily pull them up. At this moment, I am letting go of the pain that creeps in my heart. I know for whatever happen God is in command. At the end of this day, I still give back all the glory and honor to God.

 

An open letter

July 8, 2011

 

Dear God,

Lately, I am pressuring myself on trying to conceive. I hate myself for not trusting your will. Please help me to know that YOU are enough. Take my selfishness and take my eyes off the child I desire. Help me to delight myself in You. Help me to be happy with what you can offer today. Mold the desires of my heart to be in line with Your will. Teach me to be a humble and obidient child to You. Teach to be a loving and caring wife to my husband. Teach me to patient and to trust in your will.

We are partners for life You have known me since I was a child. You know all my dreams, happiness and heartaches. You embraced me, when my parents’ marriage failed. You sat beside me during my nursing examination. You walked beside me on my wedding day. I dont want to have a baby to be a stumbling block between you and me.

I want to give this desire, this drive, this ache up to You. Help me to be truly content with Your will and Your timing. You know that in my heart I still desire a baby, someone to mold, teach, train, and help to grow in You. But, untill the day You give me that joyous blessing.

Thank you for all the love and help me to keep you first.

Love,

missy

 

TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS ♥ :)

June 17, 2011

 

Yesterday was my 31st birthday ..thank you to all those who remembered and greeted me.. You make me feel that I am loved..This is my first birthday as married..there maybe major changes but still the child in me still remains..Yep!…i still want to blow candles on my cake..hehehe…and of course to make a wish..yipee!…here’s few of what i pray for this year..:)

1. baby……boy…girl…hmm..twin…hehehe….but I want to have a baby boy for this year God..please ..wink wink

2. new career…….so damn tired with my present job..i need to grow professionally

3. salary increase …..who doesnt!

4. travel more this year……soon this august….september?….yahoooooooo

5. good health…….slimmer….excess fats go away please

hmmmm……thats it for now…just let me share my themesong

 

I’ve been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart’s been done so wrong
i wondered if I
I’d ever heal again

oh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (oh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and I’ve learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

oh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (oh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life’s to short to have regrets
http://www.elyricsworld.com/today_my_life_begins_lyrics_bruno_mars.html
so I’m learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins
today my life begins…

WHY I ♥ being married

April 12, 2011

Many people asked me why I wanted to get married. Well, here are my personal thoughts:

1. Love

2. Laughter

3. Companionship

4. Bestfriend

5. Deep and simple conversation under a blanket, over the phone

6. long kisses and warm hugs

7. Hearing someone says ” I LoVE You ” all the time

8. Shared responsibilites in life

9. Waking up in the morning

10. Knowing that I have a partner to go through in life.